A few days ago, I lied to a guy about why I hadn’t responded to his text.
Now that I’m thinking about it, I’m not really sure why I lied. I’m obviously not interested anymore. I couldn’t even respond to a simple message that said “Hey.” But why didn’t I just tell him that?
It’s not like we’re best friends or anything. Our relationship is very inconsistent. And at this point in my life, I need more.
Some guys that I’ve talked to in the past start out with great conversation, but end up playing hard to get. No phone calls. No dates. No progression. I don’t like games, so I stop communicating as much as I did in the beginning. At this point, boys get confused about why I’ve been “ghost.”
YOU pursued ME. I gave you a chance. I didn’t sense any kind of growth from the situation. So I moved on.
It’s not like I’m looking for a proposal anytime soon, but I need to at least be able to form a strong friendship with a guy before even thinking about a relationship. And those are nearly impossible without commitment. I don’t want to communicate so much that I’m attached or annoyed. I also don’t want us to be complete strangers and have to catch up on a month’s worth of life events. It’s all about finding that perfect medium.
Another reason I might not answer in other situations regarding boys: I don’t like revisiting the past. If someone magically reappears in my life from some years ago, I don’t see it as fate. I already know what you’re about. I need new experiences. Seriously, as a side note, for all readers (regardless of gender): Don’t waste time looking in your rear view mirror. It’s okay to reminisce, but don’t obsess. Remember, it’s the past for a reason.